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Laughter. Win.

In the last 12 hours.

I have laughed.

aLOT.

Joy.

MAJOR progress made on dissertation. only drafted, but words there. I've reached my target for Christmas. Tidying up needed... and then sending it off to supervisors. Just wanted to share this joy with you.

much love on almost christmas eve. x

Have yourself a merry little christmas.

We may not have snow. but i have a new red coat, a lovely dog, and the biggest swimming pool in the world.

Have yourself a merry little christmas.

MerryChristmas marriotface. (sorry i didnt actually go in the sea yet..)

Dissertation.

Everything it must belong somewhere.



It is so hard for people to believe.
they are loved. they belong.

I could use somebody.

Distraction.

Today I have been so distracted by youtube.

My life has become consumed by watching video's i wish I had made.

dissertation?!

who says?

Who says I can't be free

Free from all the things I used to be.

Rewrite my history.

Who says I can't be free.

john mayer.

kirst-y

cookie.

All the right friends and all the right places.

The day after tomorrow....

SNOW.

all at once.

Who.
are.
you.

Today was a day, just like any other.

One day I might write a book.
change the world. or something.

Today I'll settle with baking cookies. and mulled wine.

smile

it’s funny how quickly we change when we stop living inwards and start living outwards and upwards.

and how much we can have lost once we finally emerge.

i found this here.
i agree.

Brunch.

best brunch. ever.

Anything but Ordinary

london. wine. mulled. pub. curry. kirsty. cathedral. cold. jokes.

This point in time.

tea. heima. book.

See. Do. change.

Yesterday I painted.
Today I am going into london and fotos.
Tomorrow i will change the world.

Somewhere along the way I will write my dissertation.

The best mixtape.

If you want more love, just say so.

Heartbreak welfare.

So, I think my blog is going to change a little. Not that it really has any structure as it is.

To quote a famous saying, a picture is worth 1000 words, or something along those lines.

And that is how we shall go forth.

Pictures and videos. How I percieve the world. A little perspective. I suppose what I am suggesting is more pictures less words. This said in the contemplation of leaving facebook and also sending people here to look at pictures so no one loses out!

I do love photos.
I hope your evening is lovely.

Passion.

This video inspires me in so many different ways.

Confetti Rainfall in the quiet streets...

There is always something to distract me.

Does it matter that this song has a simple tune?

So I think the last 7 weeks of being ill has finally caught up with me work wise.

Some say Ignorance is Bliss.

I know know the full extent of work that I have to be doing.
I think I'm in shock.

On top of work, thie little things that just make life that tiny bit more complicated.

Ontop of the little things there's placement. With placmeent comes notes, and forms and forms and more notes and supervision.
I have decided to talk myself into being able to do it all! Not sure what else really to do!

Though today I have done some editing which was joyful and listened to the newjohn mayer album.

The g on this keyboard doesn't work properly.
My lapop broke the other day.

I am a superhero and will survive at least until christmas and the hope of a holiday by the sea!

Honey and Lemon, EXTREME TEAM!

Today I went to the library but couldn't work.
Today I went to waitrose and bought honey and lemon extreme team!

Today I wrapped up warm.

Tomorrow I WILL be well.

(Yes that is a grecian vase... its left over from the housewarming.)

Watch me.

I quite like this video.

Lets talk... when it gets tough you gotta fight some more.

This weekend I got excited for the first time in a long while with thoughts of what to do once graduation has come and gone. I stayed with a friend and enjoyed a weekend of jokes and chats and foods. The kind of chats where you can be real and honest and know no judgment will be given. If you're feeling great you can say you're feeling great, if you're struggling thats okay too. No one tries to solve your problems, they are just there to listen and acknowledge where you're at. The added bonus onto all of that is when someone can relate to where you're at, and share visions and dreams.

to be continued....

all i want to do...

Fight?

Just know that you're not in this thing alone
There's always a place in me you can call home
Whenever you feel like we're growing apart
Let's just go back to the start

Anything that's worth having
Is sure enough worth fighting for
Quitting's out of the question
When it gets tough gotta fight some more.

Pancakes, guitar, m&s food, apes and tea.

how many peanut butter pancakes can YOU eat before the queasyness gets you...

im just beginning, the pens in my hand ending unplanned.

I have no idea where the last year has gone!

i get the feeling we've lost control...

i love jacks mannequin.

Today I have spent the last few hours organising my year. Well organising the work load. I have figured out dates things are to be done by and when I want my dissertation to be finished by. It works term by term. There are now alot of post its on my wall. Don't you love post its? I think they're wonderful. I feel a little overwhelmed by the thought of writing 26,000 words in total by the time i graduate. With a big chunk of that to be hopfeully written by christmas. Aim high is what i say!! Its daunting but exciting at the same time. I'm sure its achievable. I just can't wait to get stuck in now and actually do it.

Who knows what you're capeable of unless you give it a try.

This week at some point i am going to attempt to make peanut butter pancakes..
watch this space.

The click clack of our boot heels...

Hope?

http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/health/8298529.stm

check this out and have a read. moving forwards in learning about M.E?

Robbie williams and God?

What do you make of this?

Listen to the lyrics...

Like I know you can.

So, I've had no internet, at college or home.
hence the lack of posts.
It seems depressing that this post is one to tell you i'm going home. I'm going home for the weekend. This makes me sad because I will be missing my own housewarming party! I will have to find another place to wear a toga!
But I'm tired and ill and need some tlc. Lets hope the seaside brings this and I will be rejuvinated inorder to thoroughly enjoy my final year. Will surely post over the next couple of days. Will be nice to be back online. Greetings to all.
Over and out.

onece upon a time in the library...

Have your way...

You might think that after a summer of youthwork, moving house, and general frivolities a person would feel excited about returning to the library to fill their mind with new and exciting wisdom....

you would think maybe wrong. It could be because I havent had a proper break, i'd like to go with that, maybe do some fun things before college starts.

I arrived in the library about an hour ago. So far I have procrastinated, changed my status on facebook, written out my dissertation title, and arranged my books on the table... it does look like i'm trying to work, it just doesn't seem to want to happen.

Its getting quite cold though, i cannot justify leaving the library after just one hour. surely not.

Last night I found myself bored for the first time over the summer, the youthwork has practically been taken over now. First day of placement over and done with. Life is getting less complicated, not that it really is in the grand scheme of things... all i want to do is make videos, take photos, bake cakes and live by the sea....

I dyed my hair on sunday, i didn't like it, now its growing on me.

Watch this space, i am procrastinating to the extreme but I love it.

i've got a plan...

I've started trying out my new camera its a cannon ixus 9.5 or something like that
its very pretty and very cool. small nice to carry around in a bag with you! It came with a tripod and case which was much appreciated.

The photos it takes are good, but still not as good as my big nikon dlr...
I think i am a photography snob, I know its purpose is

not necessarily awesome photo,s more snapshots, you know? Here are a couple of pictures. Will hopefully try it out some more tomorrow.
Again, its main purpose for getting it was for carrying around so i could snap a picutre, its much easier to carry around than the bigger ones :)

I am excited. So i will stop rambling and show you lovely people the pictures, let me know what you think...

photo shoooot

My new camera arrived today with my parents in tow!
was lovely to see them and havea cuppa.

let me on the inside I'll be your shoulder...

This morning I planned on going for a run, it didn't happen. I think I'm better running in the afternoon, early evening. I planned my day out yesterday after realising I have a very rare full day with nothing concrete planned. Its nice. Refreshing, chilled. After having an inpromtu lie in instead of going for a run I'm in the living room of our lovely new flat. Sat with a cup of tea contemplating the fact that it is national cupcake week, and my dissertation title...



I love this mug, my parents brought me a teapot and matching mugs for my birthday/housewarming. The teapot has been used... aLOT.

The exciting part is that I think I have my dissertation title. Potentially. Although I recall that it is supposed to be something that you can argue about, which means it needs to be a statement rather than a question... I have the four area's I want to write about, I think it is just about adjusting the question slightly.
My brain just doesnt seem to want to function at the moment. Idea's won't come together, its just sporadic and i find myself thinking really hard, but it seems like theres somthing in the way, I was thinking about this earlier, I was always better at maths and physics than essay subjects at school.

Lets look at the evidence... maths and physics, love of computer games..
I'm not a geek.
I'm spending too much time on youtube... back to the dissertation... hopefully!

On a sidenote, i have just realised I have been pronouncing colby callait's name wrong for the past year....

This week its national cupcake week. click on the picture to go to an awesome cupcake site.
I wish I was thatskilled in cupcake making.

seriously, i think i now want to own my own cupcake bakery,
maybe I should see if i can make them first....

Message in a bottle.

The past six weeks feel like they have gone by in a totall blur.
I still havent got a title for my dissertation.

I think i'm figuring some stuff out though.

I know that I'm too busy, thats for sure.
Less than two weeks until third year begins.
third year
23

Another year

This morning I woke up to find a happy birthday email from jimmy eat world.
it may be generic, but made me happy!

ello there.

This is hillarious,

just over an hour left of being 22.
hmmmm.

Eccentric rave up of the millennia

rave fun times.
on thursday I turn 23
on monday miriam turns 21.

When love takes over.

Smile like you mean it...

Today I went to harrow to pick up some things for work and for the party next friday. There were people from a well known charity stopping passers by "selling" the charity and asking for money. What do you do when you see this going on? If you are asked to stop and have a minute what do you say? I would really like to know. Today I stopped and listened.

I chatted to a guy called adam who told me about what the charity were doing. He told me of stories of little girls in third world countries and how little it would cost to help them out. He seemed like a cool guy. Truth is I am skint, but then isnt everyone? I stopped for another charity a couple of months ago, I think its nice to chat to them and hear whats going on as I know it must be a hard job. They're decent people. Today I explained about my uni course (and how extortionate it is) and the volunteer work I had done in the past. This guy was more forcefull, keeping eye contact the whole time, he really wasn't taking no for an answer. I did make my way onwards though, politely thanking him and hopefully saying maybe in the future. It has made me think though. Think about how much I forget about other stuff going on. How much should I be doing?

Before I came to uni I did two gap years, of which I paid to do volunteer work, something I immensley valued, and also like to think did some good whilst I was there, so was beneficial for those whom I was working with. I have continuely helped out with youthwork and summer camps for free, and volunteer as a counsellor as part of my placement? I'm no saint, I assure you, but one person can't help everyone right? Where would you draw the line?

While writing this I have been thinking, if I can't pay to help each month, its good to remember and to remind myself atleast to pray for them. This is something I will ponder, I know there's the whole tithing thing too, but I'm not being paid, I'm actually having other people generously support me through uni!

guess what, I am not a robot.

love this.

Cookie cutter

Tonight we baked cookies.
My mother gave me a 100 piece cookie cutter set which I was really excited to be using.
However we ended up making sticky cookie dough which saddened me slightly as we didnt get to use the cutters.

Feast your eyes on these though.



The cookies didnt look like this but did taste amazing.