yummy

I have been intrigued by the prospect of a waffle maker for a while.

Today I decided I would really like to purchase one.

I think this is amazing.

This is also quite special. any other suggestions on a postcard.

Today is gonna be the day that we're gonna bring it back to you.

Today I'm not very well at all.
Everything seems to have caught up with me.

This is what I have... Myalgic Encephalopathy

It pretty much sucks. I find it hard sometimes, well alot of the time to tell people that I am really struggling with it. When I'm struggling with it.

I was reading some statistics up on it earlier, i must admit when you are low it probably is not the best thing to do. Anyhow. Its confusing, I'm torn between two extremes.

On some of the websites they talk about those who are bedridden, and I think back to when that was me, not making it to school due to extreme pain and tiredness amongst other things that a 12 year old should not have to go through. 10 years on and I'm better than I was then, so much better, I can only praise God for my progress because without him I would not be able to be so strong and determined. That is the word I think, determined. I am determined not to return to how I used to be, in this determinedness I am busy, too busy. With a degree and counselling and youthwork and friends and family and life. People often say that I'm one of the buisiest people they know. Sometimes I do to.

Then I have days like this where after 2o lectures and a day of placement plus a busy week before hand I'm having a mini crash.

I don't really know how I coped back then, when I was younger. It feels like I was a diferent person then. Something that helps me now is my friends. Some know and some don't. Those who do are awesome, those who don't, I know if I could explain they would be awesome.
Its not a nice thing or fun thing to try and understand, so I am even more blessed when they want to.

I know I will be okay. But it just sucks from time to time, I think thats allowed.

On a side note, I am sad because I didnt get to make pancakes yesterday.
Also, I watched one tree hill last night, the dare to dare episode, LOVE it.
On a further note.



I used to watch this with my parents when I was a kid. This new movie looks very fun.

Lent

A couple of years ago I was living in brixton, my small group I had begun to set up didn't really happen one wednesday.. (due to the fact that no one turned up) So to help with my slight disappointment, my two lovely housemates and I... made pancakes.

It wasn't pancake day but was a very joyous occasion, good times were had, and not all of them ended up on the floor due to over exited tossing high into the air!

Making pancakes is fun, I don't know why, but it is a social and yummy time. Tonight we will make pancakes, and they will be good.

I was thinkng about lent too today on the way to placement.

Things I am giving up, include getting stressed, if thats possible, I get far too stressed when I could just stay calm and give things to God. Lets hope in the trying it will be somewhat beneficial. I see it as a challenge, an exciting challenge. More time spent having fun and focusing on whats really imprtant rather than stressing over the little things.

Another thing which may sound rediculous so I will write it in code, but I am also going to try to stop thinking about jellybeans, this is because I don't need to and they also take up too much of my thought processess.

So giving up stress and jellybeans BUT taking up calling people more, I have become very lax in doing this this term. I Like talking to people on the telephone. I prefer being in person, but if they live far away it can be fun.

Skype is also fun.

Be joyful and eat pancakes today.

zzzzz almost

So, bedland beckons.
However I would like to share two things before I sleep.

the first is that I am debating which uni hoodie to get, and what
colour, (really not that big of a deal in the grand scheme of things i know)
I do not know what colour bottle green is, or forest green or kelly green! what about french navy. didnt know there was a french blue...

second is that through deciding i have discovered this....

Worldwide Responsible Apparel Production.

Fair trade?!

yummy

Tomorrow is a good day,

For many reasons, including this one!

waves

I love waverly.

I feel loved at waverly.

surrealism, food, karaoke full, sleep.

Lecturers singing grease songs.
Waverly has a strange effect on all.
Good on me.
It is a well needed break and refresher even if we do have 20 lectures...

I'm so full of food!

Prince charming has not arrived yet. still hoping.